Brandi Feels Ignored

I am just reading the "the blog" post and saw that Brandi felt ignored, so this thread is for her.

Brandi, I don't know who called your kids ugly, but I think they're adorable.

They Graduated From What?

Just what exactly is a sexual purity class? I can't imagine what they talk about for 12 weeks when it comes to saving yourself for marriage. Talk about cultish?

Gag

Lets try and keep this one Mormon free. We all know they are cultish freaks. *creepy*

Yep, That's Trailer Trash Alright

I know it has been said many times before by others, but I have to say that StephStanley and her pirate room did it for me. And I just can't get passed the poster on the wall about the booty and the chest. Isn't this for her boys room? I don't give a shit about giving your kids freedom and allowing them to express themselves and all that other garbage her fan club spouts off. That poster is just not appropriate.

Has There Been A Picture?

Has Yvonne posted a pic of her new little one? Can someone link it if she has.

For Those Who Missed Manda's Blog

Here is a sampling of it.


Miniscule Meanderings
Tuesday, April 22, 2003

My Collar :-D
my Master collared me tonight OL in our channel. It was sweet, beautiful, and tender. W/we spent some time going over His rules and He told me what my collar looked like and i was so giddy and excited. After going over the rules, He wasn't going to do it, but then pulled a fast one on me and did it anyway. It was so intense and brought out this newfound tenderness for Him. i just shivered when i called Him Master the first time. i couldn't have been happier. In pm He conveyed to me His feelings about being called Master and i knew then He was pleased. Such a sweet tender Man. A true gift to be owned by Him. i am His sub, not His slave for He "cares too much to treat me as a slave."Mmmmmm, does it get any better than this? He's sending me a webcam so W/we can see each other while chatting. ACK, will have to prepare myself better. Living in the middle of nowhere, i don't do a lot with my appearance anymore but i wish to look my best for Him. W/we have plans to meet RL also and i'm tremendously excited for that. i sure hope it works out well and that we have just as much physical attraction RL as we do OL.The only thing that tempers it slightly is the other OL Dom i had played with who'd asked me to wear His collar "for protection" from the pettiness in channel. i spoke with Him the other night, but apparently He didn't realize how serious i was trying to convey the things going on with my Master who was not my Master at the time. Needless to say, knowing this other Dom is hurting hurts me and i know i should set it aside and serve my Master, but it's also hard to shut down my feelings regarding another human being. It's just part of me to feel and sometimes feel too deeply. Unfortunately, this Dom walked into the channel this morning and reacted strongly. He wouldn't give me the opportunity really to explain further and that stung. He said a lot of hurtful things and i just cried. What can i do really....?So this morning is bitter sweet...
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Sunday, April 20, 2003

Seems that talk of collars has kept me spinning in recently days, weeks, however you want to look at it. As a submissive female who would like to be a "slave" I have a fascination with them and try to find essays and commentaries to hear others' thoughts and opinions on them. I'm fascinated with the idea of being owned and serving a Master. It's a complete turnon, yet it does instill some fear within me. Could I really hold up to the pressure and please a Master and do what he required of His slave.Overall, it is my desire to learn more and be capable of doing more. I'm not sure I could do 24/7 though even that thought entices me. I'm unsure if I could take a lot of pain as it's the bondage and loss of control I crave. Of course, I know better than to rush things and that it's an evolving process, but ya get greedy sometimes. Especially since this is something I've fantasized for a long long time.The RL Dom I met would like to "own" me. Somebody online offered an "online" collar for "protection" (actually, this caused me to lose some respect in Him), and now a Dom online I play with plenty publicly, privately, and on the phone with plans for real life play, brought the topic of last night. It feels "right" with the third and makes me giddy inside. It's difficult to know what is right because I feel comfortable with all three of them. I respect each of them in different ways however. The first Dom and I live very different lifestyles which would make it difficult for me to get serious with Him outside of "playing."I guess I just feel collars are something to take seriously, yet there's that part of me craving one, wanting to learn how to serve. I don't wanna take one off if I get one so wanna be smart. Though I'm tempted to have one just OL at the moment. But my Dom of choice is OL now and must go play...
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Saturday, April 19, 2003

the joys...of OL scening in channels, etc.There's a Dom I've played with quite a bit. He's one out of two whose play I enjoy and could see meeting in person. Things I thought were going well, but of course, just as some subs play with a lot of Doms, this particular Dom has played with a lot of subs and I got jealous tonight. I know he's probably not lying to me about his interest level in me, but it still hurt a little. Some submissive I am by reacting this way to an OL experience. We've talked on the phone some in addition to a heavy amount of OL scening in our channel. He even looked at plane tickets online yesterday to find a cheap ticket to buy for me to visit him next month. We were talking some and then he just left. I of course am stubborn and not wanting to push him, so chose not to call him. I'm really bummed he hasn't shown back up online and wish I could get it out of my head. I have too many things to work on and need to keep my anxiousness down. I'm not sure what to do now... *sighs*I miss talking to him and feel bad for talking to one of his admirers about it now. Oh the things we women do.....Off to mellow some more...
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Tuesday, April 15, 2003

Last week I drove out to meet the before mentioned Dom I met online in real life. Surprisingly, things went well. I found that I enjoyed the pain more than expected and crave blindfolds and being bound now. We started off slow and just cuddled the first night. The second night we shared a sweet intimacy twice that night. The third night I picked up some goodies (restraints, feathers, blindfold, and crop) at an adult store located near his place and we used them all that night. A simple beginning, yet intensely erotic. We played three nights in a row and took a break from sexual intimacy the next two nights. The play was intense and I enjoyed following commands. Of course, he knew my limits beforehand and I was surprised (both good and bad) at how quickly he tested a few of them. One thing I had never done before was "swallow." Hell, I hadn't even had someone cum in my mouth but of course I knew the taste and feel of precum. On our second night in "play" he told me I would swallow which of course prompted an internal debate over whether to safeword or not. In all honesty, there really isn't any reason for why I haven't swallowed. I love giving head and sucking on a nice little cock. I've just never allowed a man to come in my mouth before. I followed through though and was rewarded with sweet words and cuddles and snuggles which made it worth it for me. I knew he realized what a sacrifice this was for me and how much I trusted him. I hope that those reading this realize how important trust is in a relationship such as this and don't run off meeting their first OL Dom in RL. I lucked out in finding someone so quickly. We get along outside the bedroom and are definitely individuals, yet there's a tenderness between us that brings out the erotic and sensual pleasures when we're "playing." Whether I see him again or not remains to be seen. My trip was only supposed to be three days and was stretched out to eight days. Needless to say, I had a rather hard time sleeping alone last night without a restraint on my ankle.
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Tuesday, April 01, 2003

So I may or may not have a real life Dom already. We met online (surprise I'm sure), but there is a physical and intellectual connection so this could work out well. Frankly, I went online intentionally seeking somebody to meet in person for this purpose only. A relationship is nice but it is not first and foremost to me. I don't really want to have multiple partners, yet I know I become emotionally entangled to an extent with anyone I choose to be intimate with. He has an interest in teaching me things and we have some of the same kink interests and some slightly different. Some will surely test my limits, but I desire that also. I haven't talked to him near as much in the past two weeks as I did in the first few days we met. He claims to be a busy man and still interested, trying to make arrangements that we can meet and begin "trust" exercises. Quite honestly, these trust exercises sound incredibly sensual and erotic and I'm eagerly anticipating them. I crave that sensual and erotic play as much as (more than? less than?) the pain and humiliation being dominated could bring. I so crave this, but I wonder if for the right reasons. It's almost bizarre that I would want this considering the things I have endured in life. Spoke with this RL Dom today on the phone and we discussed the list of things I am/am not comfortable trying. I'm open to a lot more than I expected and the idea of pain arouses me, but I'm still not sure I could follow through with it. And public exposure scares me. :-) We'll see.
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Found this site and thought it to be a productive place to write my ramblings regarding my online adventure into the BDSM community. My intrigue with being a submissive has existed for as long as I can remember. Over recent years, with the comfortable anonymity of the internet, I explored a little further, reading more and learning more. One of my favorite "pornographic" features online are erotic/fantasy stories and I found I was most turned on with BDSM type stories. The idea of being dominated and humiliated appealed to me and turned me on in a way I hadn't expected. Thankfully I wasn't raised to believe sex was a shameful thing though I recognized my own sex drive and need to masturbate at least once a day (I estimate that I average three times daily) as possibly being outside the norm for a female. A generalization I'm sure so don't flame me. In my own personal fantasies, I was always being raped/bound/gagged/whipped and found that it took more and more to "get off."Eventually a few months ago, I opened up to an online male friend (not BDSM involved) and he assisted me with some online and phone fantasies. After several weeks, I just grew frustrated as I wanted the real thing. But what if I couldn't measure up? What if I chickened out? What if I froze up? As women we are taught to stand strong, be independent, don't allow another to dominate us. How would I bring domination into my life and live more submissively for another while still maintaining my sense of self worth and confidence in who I am? These are all things I thought about, but at the same time, my need to be submissive toward a male is dominating my every waking moment. Sooooo, one night I decide to intentionally seek out others with the same interests and met a potential real life Dom for me (will explain that situation in the next few days) and an IRC channel that I'm enjoying. I'm learning by watching and talking with others and get incredibly turned on through scening. I've scened only a few times and am still amazed with how involved I become with my actions and thoughts during that time. More on scening later.Anyway, I have to do anything real life and know I will need to be built up to it, but am looking forward to finding somebody trustworthy and patient enough to spend some time with in order to discover what I have hidden.

Finally Had Some Time To Read

I never really have liked Miss Jen. I've always thought her nose was a bit too brown and too often she squeezed herself into conversations trying to be the good guy and/or peace maker in the thread. Now I just find her to be an annoying little baby.

Her 'thank you" response to MoniqueS love fest thread (see page 2) was more like an acceptance award at the Tony's. Only someone didn't turn the music on to cut her rambling ass off. And what is this all about? Does she really need to explain that she is overwhelmed with fan letters and assure everyone that not only will they get a reply, but a heartfelt one at that? I am pretty sure I have seen all this in an after school special. The awkward girl who just wants to fit in and be everyone's friend. She doesn't usually cause any harm so when the 'mean girls' tear her apart, the other girls feel bad for her and try to say something nice. Notice who it was that started that whole business.

I have discovered this week that Sass needs to find a new counselor, or she needs to start being honest with the one she has. PSA peeps, adopting children does not automatically make you a good mother. It only gets you a few brownie points, it does not make you scout leader, ok? Sass doesn't understand why she can't get a hold on her daughter, and I can't understand why Sass doesn't see the juvenile power struggle that she seems to instigate with her daughter. Hello, McFly. Stop trying to cut her off at every turn and then maybe she will stop fighting you on the long stretch. Link Link

I am so tired of seeing all the god damn etiquette threads. I have stopped opening a lot of these threads along with the "Is this tacky?" threads. The tackiness advice on 2peas has just gotten out of hand, really. Some of the things that have been dubbed as tacky around there has shown me what stuck up snobs some of the peas are. A lot of you really don't know how to have a good time, do you? Your weddings and showers and birthday parties must have sucked ass. And etiquette??? For Christ sake didn't your mothers teach you anything?

And this-- this is just an insulting post. I am insulated that you think I am as dumb as you are to set a beverage anywhere near items in a store, especially clothing. You're lucky it only got on your items. It should have gotten on the merchandise so you would have had to pay for. That would of been a more valuable lesson. And the lady who feared she lost her kid in the Target store- this wasn't a PSA post, but it was another one of those "no shit Sherlock" kind of post. You walked for a full minute away from a 4 year old? Are you new to parenting? Do you know what a 4 year old can do in 60 seconds? What a horrific experience your child had to suffer because of your inability to do what it takes to protect your child. Shocking.

This is getting long so I will close it with today's winner for the 'you should be embarrassed' award. Did anyone else hear a braty 8 year olds voice when reading this? HOL - E SHIT! Maybe this 8 year old is getting under your skin because you are on her level.
"Why does that 8-yr-old child have to start crap about me and make my son uncomfortable?"
Wow. If that doesn't sound like a child stomping her foot and crossing her arms in protest, I don't know what does.
How do you handle it? How about telling the little girl and her mother that she is no longer welcome at your home because she doesn't listen. Ooohhhh that was hard to come up with. Grow some tits lady. You are THE ADULT.

Damn

Wow, that last section of comments was really sad. I must not be missing much on 2 peas if people are bitching about men and models and what ever that bullshit was.

Hey Spammer

If you think spamming the blog calling me Lauren is going to get me to out myself just to prove I am not Lauren, then you are wasting your time. Oh, and you are making yourself look like an ass. This is the one time I wish an anon would post under their pea name (if they have one) just so down he road I can laugh at you for at least a solid year when you learn who I am. BTW, there are people who read here who know who I am.

Let's Hope You Never Get Bad Crotch Rot

She seriously gets bent out of shape over this? Oooohhh come on now, lets be honest. There has to be some other reason for this hostility towards BIL. You are acting as though you can't stand the guy because he purposely spits mucus in your face when he talks to you. If you aren't going to be honest with yourself, at least be honest with the strangers you are wanting opinions from.

Yes, I Have A Suggestion

How about putting the kid in a crib where he belongs.

I file these kind of questions with ones such as 'I burn my finger when I put it on the hot burner. What should I do?'

Is It A Black Cloud?

Wow supermom_ttf and her family seem to end up right in the path of tragedy and drama on a daily basis. Is it a black cloud that follows the family?

Here, a group that be able might help you.

How Fucking Stupid Are You?

I over look a lot of comments here because the responses aren't the point of the blog for me (although I find them very entertaining and I know they are a huge part of why many people read the blog). However, the stupidity of some of the commenters is becoming unbearable so I am going to address the problem.

This is a personal blog, okay? It is not a public message board, it is not open to other people to post entries with their own opinions because again, it is my personal blog that I solely have control over. To intelligent people, this concept (of a personal blog) is easy to understand. To those with the brain of a sheep it apparently is not so easy to understand.

Comments such as "all the stuff posted today and this is the best you can do?" "You haven't posted in a week and this is what you find interesting to comment on?" "do you think you are saying anything that hasn't already been said?" "Update already"--- Sheeps brain, seriously. And a great example of the almighty controlling freaks that so many people get tired of over at NSBR.

You are seriously going to come to my personal blog and demand that I update? Comment that my opinions on something are not worthy of your time because you think there is something better to comment on? What the fuck?!?! Why are you here then? Why come here and complain that the material bores you? I am not here for the purpose of entertaining your stupid ass. If you get enjoyment out of it, then bonus! If you are going to complain about the context of a personal blog then go the fuck away. Do you need a map or something?

Ooooohhhhhh here is comes! I will save you the trouble, okay?

Pot, meet kettle.
Oh the irony.
You should take your own advice.
The same goes for you.
Why don't you stop reading NSBR.

blah,blah,blah,blah.....suck my dick. Here is the difference oh lame ones. I don't post things over there in safe mode then run here and elaborate on my opinion.

I keep my thoughts and responses here.
Where I feel they belong.
In my personal space.
Of my own blog.
Which I use to comment about an open message board.
Where I find joy in reading about the sad and pathetic lives of women and laughing at their ridiculous bantering. Then pointing out their stupidity.

Are you getting the picture? Do I need to get the fat crayons and recycled paper out of the cubby?

Dumb Blondes

I always knew Cara in tx was a bitch, but I never really put her in the stupid bitch category- until today. I probably wouldn't have even thought much of her responses if all she said was

There will always be people with more. I'm jealous of people with healthy children who will grow up and have grandchildren and a fulfilling life. I'm jealous of people who only have to worry about saving for college and retirement. Whose responsibility for their kids ends when they finish college and get a good job. And they can enjoy their freedom and retirement without worrying about their child for the rest of their lives.

The above makes sense to me. Her going on and on and on and on about everything she has, specifically coming back to the thread to say

Oh, and we own 9 homes but only one boat....but we do have 2 jet skis....does that count? We have this house, our lakehouse (which was/is a huge fixer-upper and on which we are doing the work ourselves and then will sell), the house we built and pay for, for my MIL to live in (and we pay for her vehicle and all her bills, including *gasp* Dish Network) She is 77 yo and we would rather her not live in the broken down trailer and on welfare, like she would have had to. And we own 6 rent houses. Which I take care of and which I just paid a $300 AC repair bill for today.

And then in the next breath she is nearly crying about what she has had to do to get to this point. Like she wants your praise one minute for doing what many others have had to do to secure a comfortable life style and bow to her the next for what she has obtained. Like the pity me story is suppose to cleverly hide her blatant flaunting.

People On WIC Are Selfish

The WIC thread has gone to 14 pages?

*MSP is just mad because she can't afford to have another child, even if she did get WIC.

*How many times is Oceans4 going to tell us that she didn't take all assistance available to her? If she qualifies for so much assistance, is currently on WIC and sacrifices a lot for her kids, then why the hell is she having another baby?

*"It is in society's interests to have healthy mothers and children. Too bad some of you are so blinded by your own selfishness. " Did you ever think that if some people using WIC weren't so selfish themselves, then there would be no reason for non WIC users to be selfish in their opinions of the system? I am willing to bet that the majority of people who have used WIC are not those people who fall in that category of failed birth control and/or unforeseen financial trouble.

I know people who use WIC. 4 of them use it because they decided that at 13, 15, 16 and 18 that they wanted a child to love them. Even though they were unemployed, lived at home, were all from low income families, didn't have a complete education and didn't have the child's father in the picture. 2 of them went on to have 2 more children before the age of 21 and one of them has had a second at the age of 20.

Another family I know had 2 kids and had been struggling financially for a year and decided that was the time to try for another baby, (this is after the wife had an affair and gave that baby away) even though they were waiting for the car to be repo'd by the bank and filed for bankruptcy.

Yes, of course we want mom and baby to be healthy, but it wouldn't be a concern if many of those mom's weren't so selfish in the first place. Just because you are able to have a baby doesn't mean you should have one. When you TTC knowing you are going to need assistance (and yes, WIC is a form of assistance), knowing you are not in the best financial place right now, knowing you don't have the proper education to get a job that will help you financially then YOU are being selfish and it is abuse of the system.

Now THAT Was Funny

SupaScrappa's reply to Joes post

figured that out all on your own, didja? for someone who is practically a woman, you sure don't get women. Stuff that in your pipe and smoke it.

LMAO


It's been a while since I have talked about Joe. His ego must be hurting.